Chapter 4 - real life story - Getting Jealous

Chapter 1 :http://kallatvinay.blogspot.in/2014/09/its-destiny-karma-chapter-1-how-it-all.html
Chapter 2 :http://kallatvinay.blogspot.in/2014/09/chapter-2-of-real-life-story-something.html
Chapter 3 http://kallatvinay.blogspot.in/2014/09/chapter-3-of-real-life-story-it-is.html


After Lunch we had gone to dome inside our campus, which is an open space where all of  us hang out after having lunch. Dome was a semi-circle structure made up of glass and fishes surrounded the outer circumference. A perfect place to hang out after your lunch. As of today, I remember it as the place were angels use to come in their short dresses and large fishes surrounded us. We were in the middle of the ocean and still working, let us leave the description at that. As usual we were all having fun pulling each others leg when I got a call from one of my friends after a long time. We talked for about two hours or so. And as per human psychology the longer the call the more is the probability that people or friends think that the other person on line is your girlfriend. So did she. I could see the anxiety in her eyes to know who was on the other side. I could almost hear her saying to her friend, "He has a girlfriend." It was funny, at the same time cute to see her getting jealous over a phone call. Everything went fine for almost a month now with chess games, eye games and all sort of games till Friday 18th November 2011.

Firday 18th November 2011 something changed drastically. She generally use to drink tea with all her female friends, although they had male friends in their group. But this time she was standing with a boy and talking to him. Honestly speaking I was really getting jealous but somehow I felt she was doing it on purpose to make me jealous. But I was terribly wrong. She might have wanted to say something to me which I could not hear or did not wanted to see at that point of time. She wanted to look at me, but I kinda refused and then she left the pantry. I was too jealous to see what was happening. I had planned to go for a movie “The adventure of TINTIN” the same night along with my COMPANY friends. It was almost 6:30, the time for us to leave for the movie and one of our kanjoos MUKKIChooooooooos (Translation Miser) friend started to cry that movie tickets were too costly and all. I almost lost my temper and in that fury said, “If you all are not coming I am going to take her and go with her instead”. And the answer came back almost reflexively, "You bring her and we would pay your bill as well." That is when I realized that me and Rahul are not the only two guys in our friends group who had an eye on her. That's when one of my friends said something that changed everything. I swear to god if you had been hit by a shot gun from a very close range that’s how I felt. Not that I know how it feels being shot by a shot gun but I would not be alive to feel the pain. Now I am Alive and have to go through it. That's when I realized what she was trying to tell me in the morning. My friend said, ”It is her last day at Office. She is leaving.” I heard her friends saying to her, “Best of Luck.” and hugged her tightly. I speculated it could be something else like getting married but it is still much worse than that. I could feel a 1000 Volts of current passing through my body, I was speechless. But I didn’t wanted to show my pain to my friends so had a good laugh at myself for being so dumb. My friend said to me, ”Let me do a screening on her for a last time," and that’s when I lost all my cool and also realized even I am seeing her for the last time. I just responded, “Not her, anyone else but not her”. That's when I realized something, I am being protective, caring about a gal whom I haven’t talked and met for not more then a month. I don’t even know if she is attracted to me or I am just another score to her. All I have thought is just a cultivation of my brain or I really imagined whatever she wanted me to know. I was watching her leave and I could not do anything but just stand there and watch her go away from me. I went for the movie with heavy heart hardly enjoying the movie ,although the movie was good.

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