A true incident taken out from the pages of my life. Hope it changes you in some way.
Episode of June 4th 2011:
I was disappointed with some current affairs in company and was getting really frustrated with the politics around in the company.
It hurt more when I came to know some of my friends were involved in it. It was kind of rainy day and I was talking to myself trying to raise my own motivation and to remain positive. Everyone here is to earn bugs no matter how, some by hard work, some by other ways but ultimately goal is the same so fight for it. Being fair in office and thinking that they would be fair is like being a goat eating only plants and in return thinking that Lion would also not eat it and would turn vegetarian. You are the person I know from my childhood. You are the sole motivator and now you cannot give up hope. You have won when everyone else had given up. Don't lie down now. Everything would be alright. You won a game from 8-0 position to 8-10 .It needs heart and you have it.
I said these words and instantly a smile came on to my face not because what I had just said but because I could connect it to something else in past.
It was September 16th 2007, one day before the Joining my first company Hexaware. I had a cup of tea in my hand warm enough to make me feel the heat of it.It was kind of a rainy day , dull climate and my mood was not particularly high as well.
Incidents that had happened in that time period to make me feel that low. Build up based on actual events. I know most of you would not know about this story.
I had received a mail from Hexaware saying "We are Sorry to inform you that your offer has been cancelled as you don't have 60% in your academic year”. My score was 59.59%. Although till that point I had my mind set to work in Hexaware and also the shame that I had to go through .How would I explain it to my parents and so on. Morale has taken up a lot of beating. Again what if friends ask how is your life at Hexaware, I would have no answers. It’s wisely said when you are nearing death you don’t make sound decisions."vinash kale vipreet buddhi".
You might all laugh but I made one of the biggest mistakes of my life .I went to PAT center with my mom taking up this issue; as I was not allowed to further appear on any campus recruitment due to my placement in Hexaware.And kind of have to say felt like something had gone wrong from my end for not getting 60% and to keep my mom also happy. Although I don’t fully justify the grading of marks in B.E , I had almost read most of the Reference book whereas people got better marks by just studying the notes of classes.Anyways that is a different discussion altogether.
To my Horror that guy was not just mad ...He was _ _ _ _ ing madddddd.....He called me up every day asking me to update the resume .I use to go home make some changes and come back. And for some odd reasons he find some other problem with the damn resume. And believe me when I say everyday it literally means everyday no hyperbole in that statement. He asked me questions which I don’t know what it had to do with my Job recruitment. I was desperate for it. No doubt now it feels funny why I was behind it so much. Might be the experience and confidence I got over the years was missing then. By then "Well" was the only world for me and searching for job was like fighting for a place in a big jungle.
Even the updated resume was no good for the PAT guy and he continued to call me almost every day even after he was somewhat happy with my resume, sometimes I used to take it positively thinking it was just to see my determination. Damn it he never ever cared about it.
So back to 16th September 2007
Anyways so here I was starring outside thinking about my future, which now was in the hands of some PAT guy and the place where I was actually going to be placed had rejected me. I was trying to find some wise words and in that worry and chaos fell unconscious. I could somehow see a faddy face almost like a shadow wearing a black shirt and blue jeans. Could not recall his face much. But could remember his attire and his word clearly" You Are the person I know from my childhood. You are the sole motivator and now you cannot give up hope. You have won when everyone had given up. Don’t lie down now. Everything would be alright. You won a game from 8-0 position to 8-10 .It needs heart and you have it.
A thunderous lighting outside brought me back into consciousness and it filled a new ray of hope and energy into me. I decided I would be drinking the first cup of tea in Hexaware .Its mine and I would not let it go. I went to Hexaware the next day and to my surprise they had reduced the cut off to 59% , which I came to know from one of my friends. And I didn’t have to fight for it. I didn’t realize then who or what that energy was that provoked me to go for it. But it really did work.
I learned one thing in life never give up hope and to my surprise the one who thought me was who..God...Intutaion..Destiny ????
The answer lies to what I was saying on 4th June 2011:
The words I said were exactly the same, You Are the person I know from my childhood. You are the sole motivator and now you cannot give hope. You have won when everyone has given up hope. Don’t lie down now. Everything would be alright. You won a game from 8-0 position to 8-10 .It needs heart and you have it.
The dress I was wearing was black Shirt and blue jeans and was standing in the same position that I was on 17th September 2011.Its damn true and my hair still stands to the exact dress that I remember seeing in my past and the dress I was wearing on that day.
You call it just a coincidence or whatever but that’s When I felt one thing the person who was motivating was no one else then me from future.
I had heard the concept of parallel worlds where your past, future and present co-exist but in different time zone. Even the image you see in mirror is some micro-second behind. Felt that for the first time. The things you see in your dreams and it actually happen. There might be some truth in it.
I just connected the dots from my chaotic life to come up with this story. A concept of chaos Theory where everything looks random but always has a pattern to it just have to join the dots.
In simple terms I call that person to be a shadow of my future that came to help my present.
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